Fall is my favorite time of year but it’s also the most challenging. My schedule is full with birthdays, traveling, Christmas parties and family holiday outings. The days pass by in a blur and it becomes increasingly difficult to find time to myself. Don’t get me wrong. I love spending time with my friends and family. Yet all this social stimulation makes me very anxious.
Two events in particular have me running for the hills: my book club’s Christmas party and a holiday piano recital. The Christmas party sounds fun and I had a great time at the last one. However, our small group has been growing over the last few months. Now when I go to the book club meetings there are so many unfamiliar faces. Also my husband was with me at the last party. So when I would feel uncomfortable I had him available to comfort me or speak on my behalf. This year I’m going to force myself to go…alone. I’m hoping the urge to see the few friends I made will out weigh my nerves.
As for my second trial, I’m not so hopeful. The very thought of playing piano in front of so many people makes me want to puke. It’s not required to play but I feel like such a wimp for coping out because this could be a good opportunity to face my fears. Thankfully I don’t have to decide now and I have over a month to practice.
I know this is a short update but I need some time to gather my thoughts for the introvert traveling series I would like to start. Until then…here’s a cute picture of my cat in a witch hat.